Smoke a dream

Theo's purr was very intense when we did an early afternoon post-wakeup cuddle. Loud and deep, it was wonderful.

The carpenter ants are still around of course. I updated Mom on the findings of my quick internet research, but we won't get aan exterminator out here until after the Florida trip. Which means when I return I will have dozens of ant corpses to pick up and put in the cup.

Leslie and Pau came over last night. Mainly so Leslie could trim my hair. I gave her "Galaxie" and she liked it, though I think she liked it mostly because I made it for her. (Well she could love the painting itself but I don't, it's not one of my faves). She trimmed the sides down to a 1, shorter than I really wanted but that will be it for the summer and this was the only opportunity for her to do it for me. My mohawk is really a mohawk now and I don't feel "punk" enough to have it. Of course when my mom and I go to Florida next week we will be going to church with my brother's family, and my hairstyle may make them concerned about how -they- look. Whatever, it's totally functional. And it's not like this is the first time my hair has been trimmed to a 1. Before Leslie trimmed my hair I asked her if it was okay that I take my shirt off since I didn't want all those little hairs to be stuck on it. She said she was okay with it, so I took it off and it was a little awkward at first. She looked off to the corner but there was no way she could avoid seeing my breasts since she would be over me trimming my hair. But once we started I think it was okay, it was a little awkward for me at first but then it was fine. If I can feel comfortable around anyone it's those two.

After Leslie, Pau and I were done here, we went over to his place (we were waiting to go to Pau's house when his mom would be asleep). A couple weeks ago I went to the Roadshow with Pau and Ron and I purchased a vial of 10X Salvia Divinorum. I promised Ron last September that I would get some so he could experience it. Well that didn't happen until now (I don't like to call it procrastination, though really that is what it is). I had been wanting to smoke it over the weekend when I had the house to myself but Ron didn't want to do it then so he suggested Tuesday (yesterday). He was unreachable, so we decided to do it without him. This was Leslie's first time and my third. I had hoped that 10X would be low enough to not fuck with me but high enough to still get the physical feeling. I was the first one to take a dose and I soon realized that I had forgotten the initial salvia trip feeling. For me it feels like gravity increases, I was sitting in a desk chair with a high back and arms and I setted into them deeply. My head was resting on the top of the chair back and I was fixed onto the ceiling. More like my head could not really move because of the heavy feeling. We were in Chris' room and Pau had splatter-painted it recently with purple and black paint. This made the room good for tripping. Visually I was focused onto this 2'x1' area of purple and in it was a typical psychedelic pattern, kind of like a paisley. I also got the wave and some slight movement of the splatters. No actual objects appeared however I saw one dark spot move across the periferal of my vision and a large shape began to develop in front of me (against the far wall) but did nor really coalesce, if it did I think it would have been a dragon since that is what I felt it was as a light blur. If I focused I could see more visuals, like if I just stared off. Mentally during the peak it felt like I was visiting a dream I had had sometime in the recent past. I do not think I actually had this dream. But in my salvia mind I was returning to a dream where Pau and Leslie were present and the setting seemed very familiar. The room was more of a magenta/fuscia and we were in more of a hallway than a bedroom. In the dream I was conversing with Pau which IRL while I was tripping he was standing next to me readying Leslie's dose. I think how salvia aaffects my brain may be connected to my brain as it dreams, since the first time I tripped I went to a place that is common in my dream settings. This 'peak' did not last too long and I think I kept myself more grounded since there were others in the room who were grounded. Leslie was next and then Pau. Afterwards everyone was really tired, I had not experienced this before but I think it was due to the fact that it was 1 AM when we dosed. After Pau seemed to be down enough we had a chat about our trip, Leslie was asleep or at least lating down and not up to discussion. I will get her report later. Right now I feel very fatigued and out of it which is not unusual for me, but it is a different type of feeling than normal. I will attribute this to the salvia trip. I had an active dreaming night which may or may not have to do with the salvia. I usually have at least one dream I remember with good detail the next day, but I had at least 2 separate dreams from last night that I remember with decent detail.

I woke up at about 1 PM and it is now close to 2 PM, I think working on this entry helped to shake some of the feeling, but I am noticably "out of it" when I look around and try to focus on things. Oh well, it's happened before with the panic attack seizures and I can deal with it.

I trimmed my armpits a couple days ago. The length of the hair was long enough that it could use a trim, probably a couple inches. Plus I trimmed it for Florida on the off chance I would wear a bathing suit (not doing the legs though). I definately can tell that I STINK. When I have pit hair I do not have pit odor, but now that it is gone I can really smell it. It seems counterintuitive but it is true, other girls experience the same thing. I used the hair trimmer bare and I got a couple cuts. I don't think I could handle shaving it, last time I shaved my pits bare (in Feb I think) I was disturbed by how wierd and unnatural I looked. So I have some stubble, and I think it will grow out to a nice length by the time of BFC. But yeah, I definately have pit b.o.

I have two dreams I need to record. Both are sex dreams and the being I was having sex with were both animals. But I think that will have to wait until later today to be written out.